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[aididitmyway]

please astral project here

it'll look pretty later

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Re: Night 104

[aididitmyway]

So we just... say the problem, but we don't actually need to be truthful about reincarnation or getting stuck in a weird pasture where people die sometimes...

Re: Night 104

[aiwillneversmile]

Yeah. From when I did my rotations, they're just trying to help you figure out your feelings, not getting into details. Helping people be functional and healthy, you know?

Re: Night 104

[aididitmyway]

Mm... yeah.

I get what you mean. Do you think it'd actually help?

Re: Night 104

[aiwillneversmile]

It couldn't hurt? Especially since I'd actually give it a chance this time.

Re: Night 104

[aididitmyway]

... Promise? That you'd give it a chance?

Re: Night 104

[aiwillneversmile]

[sighs]

I promise. I've been . . . Bad for awhile, and it's only going to get worse. It's scary.

Re: Night 104

[aididitmyway]

... Well, I'll make sure I hold you to it. I won't let you give up. Okay?

Re: Night 104

[aiwillneversmile]

I know, I trust you. And I've wanted to be better for a long time, too. It wasn't just this that made me realize it.

Re: Night 104

[aididitmyway]

I'm... glad you thought of it on your own, though. Even if it wasn't just this whole place.

You can't get help if you don't want help.

Re: Night 104

[aiwillneversmile]

No, but I also had a lot to take care of. There hasn't been time to stop.

Re: Night 104

[aididitmyway]

Not until here, right?

Re: Night 104

[aiwillneversmile]

Not until here. And I don't like it either. I was waiting for so long that I want to be done now, especially when we're this close.

Re: Night 104

[aididitmyway]

I'm glad it made you actually have to stop and think, though.

... I mean, it'd be nice if it was done, but you need to care more about you, too. I can't be happy unless my brother is happy.

Re: Night 104

[aiwillneversmile]

. . . I can't be happy until he's taken care of, though . . . For you, for me, for mom.

Re: Night 104

[aididitmyway]

...

Then it has to be in a way where I don't lose you. I don't... want him to hurt you, and it's not like he has a good record.

Re: Night 104

[aiwillneversmile]

He won't hurt me. I'm not his type. Honestly, he'd probably hate hurting me because it would dirty his hands. It's you that's the target between us.

Re: Night 104

[aididitmyway]

... I mean, maybe, but...

even if he doesn't do anything to you, I'm worried about what you might do.

Re: Night 104

[aiwillneversmile]

. . . What do you think I'll do?

Re: Night 104

[aididitmyway]

...

I don't think you value yourself at all.

Re: Night 104

[aiwillneversmile]

It would only be for your sake.

Re: Night 104

[aididitmyway]

I think you value me too much.

[she says, even though she'd sacrifice herself for cygnus without a second thought]

Re: Night 104

[aiwillneversmile]

Like you feel differently about me.

I'll try, I will, but I also started all of this prepared for what could happen.

Re: Night 104

[aididitmyway]

[hey she's trying to be a total hypocrite in peace aqua]

And I didn't. You're not seriously telling me you'd sacrifice yourself for me, right?

Re: Night 104

[aiwillneversmile]

[has already stopped brushing her hair, not touching her]

Lyra, I'm sorry. But I can't, won't, live without you.

Re: Night 104

[aididitmyway]

[she abruptly pulls away, so that she can turn to face him]

But I can live without you? You can't make that decision for me!