... Lyra...? ( quietly, but- it needs to be said. ) If- If I do... wind up leaving. I won't resent you for taking another, if you want. Your happiness is the most important, and I don't want you to feel obligated to me when we don't know how long anything will last.
[Her breath catches in her throat for a moment, before she buries her face in Sonata's neck.]
I mean, I—I get it, but... We don't know how long anything'll last. I don't want to just do something when we don't even know how it's all gonna end. I care about you too much.
Mm. I just- I love you. So very much. But I don't want you to feel like you have to wait for the end. I want you to be happy and to pursue what makes you happy.
Then—I mean, if it happens, then it happens. But being able to see you again would be motivation enough, right? Especially since it doesn't have to be goodbye forever or anything.
[she's fighting her own feelings down, even though there's despair clawing at the pit of her stomach and anxiety, but it's not abandonment, and she refuses to think of it that way even if her entire past gives her a bad, kneejerk reaction to it.]
That would be up to you, I think. I just... I'm not saying I want to break up, I promise. If it does happen. I just want you to accept whatever love comes your way too. Alongside me.
And if they don't take care of you properly I'll take a page out of Zenith's book.
I know what you mean. Especially because... I won't see you for awhile if you leave. But if something happens, then—it happens. And you should feel like you can do the same too, okay?
... To be honest, even if I do stay, I think I wouldn't mind if you found a second- it's just that it hasn't happened. You have two hands. And the prior statement would still be the same.
( read: she'd murder anyone who broke lyra's heart. )
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aididitmyway) wrote2021-06-12 06:46 pm
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[But letting herself be dragged, flopping next to her.
And then freezing, because it doesn't take much for her to realize what that means. She tries to keep her expression neutral.]
. . . So you're gonna get a wish soon, right? And leave.
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You're not sure?
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Things could happen. Anything could.
... I don't want to hurt you though.
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[Even if she is awful at handling people leaving, but. A case can be made for a happy ending.]
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But I want you to be happy. And free from this dumb place if you can be.
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... I'd miss you if you left.
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I just... have too much to do here. I'm sorry.
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I want to go with Zenith. Or- Or wait for him and Fantasia to come home. I have almost nothing keeping me in my realm. But you...
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Maybe whenever it's time, I'll use my wish so that I can visit you whenever.
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... Lyra...? ( quietly, but- it needs to be said. ) If- If I do... wind up leaving. I won't resent you for taking another, if you want. Your happiness is the most important, and I don't want you to feel obligated to me when we don't know how long anything will last.
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I mean, I—I get it, but... We don't know how long anything'll last. I don't want to just do something when we don't even know how it's all gonna end. I care about you too much.
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[she's fighting her own feelings down, even though there's despair clawing at the pit of her stomach and anxiety, but it's not abandonment, and she refuses to think of it that way even if her entire past gives her a bad, kneejerk reaction to it.]
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And you wouldn't be. It's—it's different than leaving by surprise, isn't it?
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And if they don't take care of you properly I'll take a page out of Zenith's book.
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I know what you mean. Especially because... I won't see you for awhile if you leave. But if something happens, then—it happens. And you should feel like you can do the same too, okay?
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( read: she'd murder anyone who broke lyra's heart. )
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This isn't the conversation I was expecting to have when you opened up this conversation.
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