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You don't want to, right?

... I'd miss you if you left.

And I'd miss you.

... I'd try to figure out how to go with you if I could.

I just... have too much to do here. I'm sorry.

I know. And I-

I want to go with Zenith. Or- Or wait for him and Fantasia to come home. I have almost nothing keeping me in my realm. But you...

Have a lot going on.

Maybe whenever it's time, I'll use my wish so that I can visit you whenever.

That would be nice.

... Lyra...? ( quietly, but- it needs to be said. ) If- If I do... wind up leaving. I won't resent you for taking another, if you want. Your happiness is the most important, and I don't want you to feel obligated to me when we don't know how long anything will last.

[Her breath catches in her throat for a moment, before she buries her face in Sonata's neck.]

I mean, I—I get it, but... We don't know how long anything'll last. I don't want to just do something when we don't even know how it's all gonna end. I care about you too much.

Mm. I just- I love you. So very much. But I don't want you to feel like you have to wait for the end. I want you to be happy and to pursue what makes you happy.

Then—I mean, if it happens, then it happens. But being able to see you again would be motivation enough, right? Especially since it doesn't have to be goodbye forever or anything.

[she's fighting her own feelings down, even though there's despair clawing at the pit of her stomach and anxiety, but it's not abandonment, and she refuses to think of it that way even if her entire past gives her a bad, kneejerk reaction to it.]

I know. I just... don't want to be one more wound on your heart. I'm sorry, I must sound strange.

You don't.

And you wouldn't be. It's—it's different than leaving by surprise, isn't it?

That would be up to you, I think. I just... I'm not saying I want to break up, I promise. If it does happen. I just want you to accept whatever love comes your way too. Alongside me.

And if they don't take care of you properly I'll take a page out of Zenith's book.

[That gets a small laugh out of her.]

I know what you mean. Especially because... I won't see you for awhile if you leave. But if something happens, then—it happens. And you should feel like you can do the same too, okay?

... To be honest, even if I do stay, I think I wouldn't mind if you found a second- it's just that it hasn't happened. You have two hands. And the prior statement would still be the same.

( read: she'd murder anyone who broke lyra's heart. )

This isn't the conversation I was expecting to have when you opened up this conversation.

... I just say what comes to my head I'm sorry-

Don't apologize!!!

But I am!!

And you don't have to!

This is all just very weird and stressful and aaaaaaaaaaa....

( screams softly into girlfriend's chest )

[CUDDLES AGGRESSIVELY]

I know. But I think it'd be good for you... and imagine going to Zenith's place. Maybe you can get gossip on him.

He says I'd like it. It's a nation of academics...

Oh.

Yeah, you'd definitely like it. Cutest nerd in the whole country.

[said very affectionately]

( prrt~ )

I did have fun when he made that essay.

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