aididitmyway | sweet suite inbox

I'm starving for my brother's attention.

[:(!!!!!]

I am right here. And we live together. You're not starving; you're practically feasting.

I'm thinking about the future! The future without you!

. . . You don't plan on catching up, do you.

I'm using this unexpected break to work on myself, so... catching up would mean I have less time.

[to, you know, not be a total mess in distress or whatever]

[makes every annoyed and displeased face under the sun, just a good long stretch of doing the math around this . . . before sighing with a hand in his hair]

You could have said that before I've done countless shameless things to leave this place.

[What kind of shameless things have you done Aqua??? Wait not important right now]

[she bites back the "no one made you do those things but you" comment]

It's not like I was doing all that great back home... so...

[clever girl]

. . . I know. I'm sorry for pushing you again.

... Don't apologize for that. I just... need to do things at a different pace than you.

Ruby, you don't want to do the movie. I wouldn't blame you if you said you didn't want to be an idol anymore, either. Directly or indirectly, I've been pushing you a lot.

I'd rather not do the movie. I just... I'm not good at acting like you are and there's just a lot going on and it's a lot of pressure to try to be mama.

I just wish being an idol could be like those idol animes where nothing bad ever happens.

I'm not good at acting. I just learned from Ai and the director, and I never stopped trying.

Mm, but you've realized that real life isn't like that. So, you can give up, if you want to. I mean, you reached your goal already, didn't you?