aididitmyway | Sheep Inbox

[SOMEHOW AVERTING HER EYES MORE]

I disowned him.

[she can feel him flinch in surprise, ever so slightly]

...Well, I'd say that counts as a fight. What led to that?

He told everyone we were Sugar's kids after we'd been keeping it a secret. I- didn't want that information out because I thought it'd ruin mama's reputation. It's really bad for idols to have that kind of information out there, and I didn't want her memory ruined, so...

[nods, slowly; he has a vague understanding of what being an idol entails.]

If you were both keeping it secret for that long then he must have known that just as much as you. Do you know why he decided to change his mind?

He was trying to stop a friend's scandal and he asked if I'd be willing to do anything and I said yes but I didn't expect—

Anyway, I found out some really important information and I have to apologize to him, but Charon and I went to check and—he was gone.

...Sorry.

[it feels inadequate to just say that]

At least—if he's back home now, he'll be waiting for you. There's still plenty of time to talk to him when you get back.

That doesn't change now, though, does it? He's still gonna be thinking I hate him.

I don't think he will, though.

How do you know?

I—Did Charon tell you the situation, or...

[shakes his head]

No, I don't know anything. So I'm sure it's not really my place to say. But...I do know a thing or two about having messy fights with siblings. And I saw a little of how you both interacted with each other and talked about each other. You're his sister. Even if you're mad at him, you still love each other.

[She huffs, but her gaze is still averted]

Maybe. He has every reason to not.

If we all worked off of reason alone we'd be very different people. Besides, you've got to have a little faith in your brother. He knows things are complicated right now. He also knows you love each other. It doesn't mean things are perfect, but he seems like the kind of person who will stick it out when things get rocky.

I—Guess.

[She sighs and reaches up to rub at her eyes because she's tired and her eyes are bothering her and definitely not because there are little tears hanging out or something—]

But he doesn't get to know what I do and I can't tell him and—

[she just wants some closure, she never gets closure]

...It's frustrating.

[not getting to say what you need to say to your sibling tugs at his heartstrings in a very specific kind of way. she deserves to have that much closure.]

I have—an idea. I don't know if it's any good. We could give it a try anyways, if you want.

[She seems a little? Confused and maybe a bit suspicious, but not unwilling. It's the first time she brings her gaze back to his.]

Like what?

It's kind of a long shot, so don't get your hopes up too high. The first step is to write down everything you want to say to your brother. A letter isn't as good as saying it in person, but it's better than not saying it at all if you can't reach him.

[he steps back and starts pacing around as he talks]

After that, there are three things I can think of. Blossom has been able to send people home sporadically thanks to the first ritual. But I don't know if anyone has tried sending objects. I don't know if anyone has asked about it either. But...we could talk to Blossom to see if she could send the letter home. Since Nyx just left there might still be some link to your world, like a path that hasn't fully closed yet. There's no guarantee that it would reach him directly even if we got it that far. It's just a chance, unless Blossom has a way to make sure it ends up in his hands.

The second option is similar to the first, but we'd ask Red. He's able to get things from home. So for the right price he might be able to send things home too.

The last option is to find out if anyone here is from your world—anywhere in the world would be fine. And make a copy of the letter to give to each person. You'd have to trust them, obviously, and I don't know if that's something you would be comfortable with. But if they end up going home too at some point, then they could give him your letter.

[She wasn't expecting such an in-depth plan, and she's actually a little stunned—quiet, thoughtful—]

Do you—do you really think something might work? I think everyone from my world is gone by now, but—

[She's only a little hopeful, she doesn't expect anything to be so lucky, but—]

It's not the same, but... it'd still be something...

I think at least one of them has a shot at succeeding. And if none of those attempts work then you're just right back where you started. So it doesn't hurt to try. You've got nothing to lose and plenty to gain.

... You're not wrong.

[... she hesitates for a moment]

Do you want to know why I need to talk to him so badly?

[raises his eyebrows in surprise]

If you want to tell me.

We're both reincarnated... and we knew each other in our past lives. It's kind of depressing and you don't really need the details, but he was my doctor. The only one that ever really cared about a kid being stuck in the hospital.

We both died and got reincarnated as Sugar's kids. But—we never told each other. I didn't even know my doctor had died. I—everything I ever did was because I was trying to find him.

[the first thought he thinks is: oh that's probably why Nyx knew Latin, that makes sense now

the second thought he thinks is: reincarnated???]

I wasn't expecting reincarnation. Somehow. ...How did you find out he was your doctor if he didn't tell you?

Charon saw a memory of Nyx's in the fountain... and then he saw one of my memories. He figured it out and I was able to guess because of how he reacted.

Charon, huh. I'm not surprised. He's really too smart.

[...reaches over, tentative, to give her a pat on the head]

I'm sorry your first life didn't work out. Obviously this one hasn't been smooth sailing either. But I hope it's better.

I—I'm not surprised either, I just didn't expect it since I didn't know what was showing up with Nyx's memories—

[oh, headpats though. she loves headpats. she trails off and it looks like she actually enjoyed that.]

... It's not all that great. It's bad in entirely different ways.

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject